HI *wave*
This Skin is by: *cascade388

There are three Sections to this journal... The first one is a Fear Quiz so you can see if i need psycho help. The second is the update And finaly the Personal-stuff*

*This section if you don't read you won't see my insanity and will miss a good couple of laughs. OH but it may have some swearing and some less then child appropriot stuff, and if you don't read then ur not my friend! Jkjk onn tat last part XD

-------------------------------SECTION 1: FEAR QUIZ----------------------------------
I got this from ->

Rules:
If you get more than 30, get some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 11-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are full of BS.

I fear ...

[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[x] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[x] open spaces (these usually are full of people)
[x] closed spaces (these are usually full of people too)
[x] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders (they are creepy)
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total - 4

[x] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep deep water
[ ] snakes
[x] silk (Soo GIRLY 0_0)
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[x] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad (if i had one...)
[x] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom (My crushes mom... i'm scared of what she would say)
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places (Heights in general)
[ ] snow
Total - 5

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[x] heaven (Too bright... I wanna go to hell and take over damnit!)
[x] being robbed (STAY AWAY FROM MY $16.42!!!! DON'T TOUCH THAT N64!!!)
[x] falling (Wheee!!! *splat* 0.0' )
[x] clowns (They are SMILING 0_0)
[x] dolls (Well porceline ones... they have this Wierd look since i watched dead silence)
[x] large crowds of people (Sooo Mannnyyyy Peoplee..... *runs*)
[x] men (I WAS FEAKING MOLESTED WHEN I WAS 5 DAMMINT!!! but i don't mind Boys, just Old Men XD)
[x] women (i'm one but they are FREAKY with they make-up)
[] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors (I Saw too many reap games concerning them...)
[ ] tornadoes
Total - 10

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases (With my goddamned immune system i KNOW i'll get them!)
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th (I like it XD)
[x] scary movies (NEVER WATCHING THE OMEN AGAIN 0_0)
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[x] school (Die will ya bullies, French, and Gym?)
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind (No moar READING!?! NO MOAR DA?!? HELL NO!!!!)
[x] becoming deaf (I can't live without music!)
[X] growing up (I GREW UP WAY TOO FAST SO F#CK YOU!!!)
Total - 6

[x] creepy noises in the night (I was molested at night...)
[x] accomplishing my dreams/goals (I actually did that??? 0_o)
[x] needles (My mom and 2 nurses had to pin me down while another took a blood sample)
[x] blood (But it tastes GOOD!!!)
Total - 4

I got.... 29 0_0 Why did i take this??? half my fears aren't here!!! AND I KNOW I'M PARINOID GODDAMNIT!!!! I've HAD phyciatrists!!!!

--------------------------------SECTION 2: UPDATE--------------------------------------

~The final mission is gonna be late.... AGAIN! >_<' it already is XD
~STILL putting off L.B.A till i get a good idea! Or read a How to write comics book XD
~Shady's story... I forgot about it to tell you the truth XD
~My Contest entries: Put on hold, they are at school, i forgot them in my locker last friday and i STILL haven't gone to school since friday the 13th! And the typed ones are on my Flash Stick... Wich i lost... AGAIN!
~I have Sonails story's circling my head, and Shadria ones... should i type them?
~The Underworld... I'm not writing that till my writing gets better!
~ANY other OC story's... On hold since i have so much going on!

---------------------SECTION 3: PERSONAL STUFF AND PROOF OF INSANITY!!!----------------

~~~~I'm sick with GOD KNOWS WHAT, My basment FLOODED, and one of my very FEW friends is moving, maybe to a place 50 minutes away! I'm failing a HELL of alot of classes! AND I HAVE NO RIDE TO THE THEATERS!!! I had to go CLOTHES SHOPPING *Shudder* AND I MIGHT HAVE TO MOVE TO SASKATCHEWAN!!!
~~~~I'M TIRED OF MOVING, I'VE MOVED... *starts counting on fingers* 6 FUCKING TIMES!!! I had 2 DAY-CARE/PRE-SCHOOLS 4 ELEMENTRY'S AND TWO HIGHSCHOOLS DAMMIT!!! I GOT FUCKING PROMISED 5 YEARS HERE, OR TILL THE END OF HIGHSCHOOL!!! WE'VE ONLY BEEN HERE 4 DAMMIT!!!! I FINALLY TOOK DOWN MY FUCKING WALLS OF FUCKING BEING GODDAMN ALONE! I FINALLY STARTED MAKING FRIENDS AGAIN AND THEY MOVE ME!!! SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY MOM'S JOB THAT WE HAVE TO KEEP MOVING!!!!
~~~~YES I REALISE I'M RANTING TO YOU GUYS BUT THE ONLY OTHER PERSON/THING I CAN TELL IS MY TEDDY BEAR!!!!
~~~~I'M WAKING UP AT FIVE IN THE GODDAMN MORNING FOR NO GODDAMN REASON!!! AND MY DREAMS ARE PLAUQUED WITH SONAILS SHADRIA AND FUCKING RANDOMNESS!!! AND FOR SOME GODDAMNED REASON I'M FUCKING HAPPY AND RANDOM AT SCHOLL!!!
~~~~THE FUCKING STRESS OF TAKING CARE OF MY BROTHER AND DAD IS MAKING ME INSANE!!! I SEE MY INNER TEENS FOR FUCK'S SAKE THEY TALK TO ME, I'LL FUCKING POST DRAWINGS I DID OF THEM IF YOU DON'T BELIVE ME!!! AND THEY LOOK LIKE GODDAMNED ANIME CHARACTERS!!! !!! MY OC'S TALK TO ME!!!
~~~~~...........................Whew. Now that i'm calmed down i'm posting one of the conversations i had with My OC's and Inner Teens. Because my Hands are sore i'm gonna do the names short formed this is a legened for ANYTIME i go short form with them.
NOTE: The Sonic Versions of my family and friends aren't here because i'd NEVER have this conversation with them... ALSO THERE IS SOME LESS THEN CHILD APPROPRIOT THEMES IN HERE BUT NOT ALOT.

BTW this actually happend!

I=Ice
Sn=Snow
C=Chili
Sh=Shady
W="Wave"
Sl=Slick
F=Freddie, My inner emo *male* teen
R=Rikkie, My inner Happy-go-luckey *male* person(Is also Shadow's Honerary Uncle in THE FINAL MISSION)
Ko=Kookie, My inner Fangirl
Ka=Kass, My inner Video Game Gal

~Starting Conversation~

Me: *Walks into my room after grabbing school and art bags from downstairs, just got back from store* UGH! *Throws bags next to nightstand, Throws Hat and Male Hoodie over Homemade mic stand for rockband, FALLS onto extreamly low couch*
Sn: *siiting on my desk oppisite of the corner with no leg* What happend?
Me: I went for a TWO HOUR shopping trip with a "FRIEND OF THE FAMILY" and we didn't even go where we needed to! *picks up Teddy and hugs him*
I: *Lying on bed staring at celing with glazed expression, loses expresion and turns head towards me* I thought girls LOVED shopping? *rolls eyes* *goes back to staring at celing with glazed expression*
Me: NOT ME! I HATE SHOPPING!!!

~Change in topic~

C: *leaning against closet door* Why don't you play karioke to take your mind off it as usual?
Me: Because My Friend's Sister is borrowing ALL my CDs!
C: Oh.
Me: Ya! *does impression of Chili's voice* Oh. *Stops impression*

~Topic Change~

Sh: *Sitting on window sill* ... Kat... is it your time of the month?
Me: ... What kind of Queston is That? YES YOU IJIT! But It just makes me Random, Happy, and Quesy!
W: *Listening to music on my laptop, Sitting on Dresser that DOESN'T have a t.v. on it* Quesy?
Me: YES i can smell the flipping blood!
F: *Sitting on Shelf IN walk in closet* Blood... I wanna taste some...
Slick: *At desk writing paperwork for his buisness* Let's Change the Subject... PLEASE.

~Topic Change~

Me: Okay... Kass add the drums and take them I'll take Guitar and mic. *takes off stuff from micstand, rolls them into a ball, Throws them into corner, sets up mic*
Ka: *standing infront of t.v. with guitar on* *hands me guitar* Okay, *sets up drums and starts game* LET'S ROCK!
Ko: *Sitting on top of couch* Why can't we Play SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG Kat?
Me: Because I don't own it and I don't have enough money to buy it AND I REFUSE to rent it AGAIN! OH SHIT IT STARTED *starts singing and playing*
Ko: *rolls eyes* Why not SONIC HEROES then?
Me: *waits for guitar solo* Because it keeps glitching on the Level i'm on, So Annoying *Starts singing again*
F: Are you sure you don't just suck at it?
Me: SILENCE! Fuck this i can't concetrait! Wave wanna play?
W: Okay! *takes guitar and fixes mic*

~Topic Change~

Me: *flops back onto Couch, Lying down this time* *one minute later* UGH, I can't stop thinking About Mikey from summer camp!
Sn: He WAS cute...
I: *Snaps back to reality again* He was okay... Wait, don't take that the way I know you will, i meant he wasn't a user.
Me: Where DO you go when you zone out?
I: *Zoned again* Cream....
Me: Okay that answered that... UGH back to Mikey ALREADY??? *Covers head with pillow*
Ka: He was half-decent at Video games...
Ko: Even if he liked rap...
F: It WAS emotional rap...
W: *giggles* He was so SHY at the "prom"... *covers mouth with hands*
C: He kept promises...
Sh: And he didn't run when you got emotional, he stayed and talked to you.
Sl: He sounds like the perfect guy. 0_0
Me: Yaa.... DAMN I THINK I HAVE A CRUSH! NO- NOT- AGAIN-!!!!!!!

~Topic Change~

Me: I have nothing against a-
Sn: KAT! THERE ARE KIDS IN HERE!!!
Ka: Right....
Dad: HEY SUGAR! KAT! GET DOWN HERE!
Kat: Ugh. Bye guys have fun without me. *goes downstairs*

~END CONVERSATION~

.... Ya I need a psyciatrist Well that's it for now...

Bye Ya'll~